TITLE: Dead No More
AUTHOR: Erin M. Blair
E-MAIL: eblair@sonic.net
CLASSIFICATION/CATEGORIES: SRA -- Story, Romance, Angst
CONTENT: Mulder/Scully Romance. 
DISTRIBUTION/ARCHIVE STATEMENT: OK to Gossamer, 
Ephemeral, After the Fact, MSR Cheerleaders Archive. 
Others: OK.
RATING: PG 
SPOILERS: The Blessing Way
SETTING: Season Three
DISCLAIMER: Mulder and Scully belong to Chris Carter. 
DATE: Completed on: August 6, 2004.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS: This story is dedicated to my
writing mentor (and beta reader), Jen. 
SUMMARY: Mulder thinks of his life and about his
budding relationship with Scully after the events in
"Anasazi" and "The Blessing Way."

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Dead No More
by Erin M. Blair
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They have tried to silence my voice; they have
tried to take the one thing that matters most to
me. They have tried to break me down at every 
single turn, but like the Phoenix, I have risen from 
the dead.

They have set fire to the box car, but I'm still here. 
I'm barely holding on, but I can still hear her cries.

I could hear her voice calling out to me. I wished I could
get out from under the rocks; unfortunately, I couldn't
summon the strength that I needed. 

Angels in the form of Albert Hosteen and his family 
saved me from death that day. Their healing ritual
worked wonders on me. 

Now I wonder about her. 

I know I behaved badly towards her when they were 
trying to discredit me by drugging my water. She 
deserves so much more than me; I blame myself 
for not saving her in time on that lonely night months
ago. 

I knew then how much she means to me. I owe her
everything. When she came into my life, I knew 
she was going to change my world. She had my
heart -- possibly from the moment that I first saw
her standing before me. My heart quickened when
our hands touched the first time. Electrical currents
swirled inside me that day. 

And every single day since then, our eyes have looked 
deeply within our souls. 

She has my heart.

I can visualize the pain she must be going through. I'm
not there to brush away those tears from her eyes as
she cries on her mother's shoulder. I'm not there when
she hands her gun to Skinner. I'm not there when she
finds a chip in her neck. 

I'm dead no more. 

Now I can take my rightful place at her side. She will
be lonely no more. She will no longer have to cry for
me because I'll be with her.

Forever more. 

-- the end -- 

 
Feedback: I would like to hear from you. I treasure
feedback. Send to: eblair@sonic.net 

Author's Notes

This story was inspired by one of the writing prompts
at Writer's Digest for the month of June. I thought this
prompt, "If someone had wanted me dead, he missed a 
good chance when," would be a natural for any character 
on the X-Files, especially Mulder when he almost died. 

I always like the cosmic connection that Mulder and Scully
seemed to convey in that brilliant trilogy of episodes. At
the same time, I wanted to allude the romance that was 
beginning to happen and a certain event in the later episodes
of the show. 

This story was enjoyable to write especially since the block
seemed to have lifted. :) I hope you enjoyed this story as 
well. I would love to hear from you.

Once again, I would like to thank Jen for beta reading this
story as well as becoming a mentor of sorts to me. I would 
like to thank everyone at Mulder's Refuge. Everyone there
has been so wonderful to me.