TITLE: Miss You
AUTHOR: Erin M. Blair
E-MAIL: eblair@sonic.net 
CLASSIFICATION/CATEGORY: SRA---Story, Romance, Angst.
CONTENT: Mulder/Scully Romance
RATING: PG
DISTRIBUTION/ARCHIVE STATEMENT: OK to
Gossamer, EMXC, Ephemeral, After the Fact, etc.
All others - feel free to archive this. Let me know
where it is, of course. 
SPOILERS: all things, Requiem, DeadAlive,
Existence, NIHT, TrustNo1, William, pre-the Truth. 
SETTING: Season 9
DATE: First draft -- October 10, 2003. Final draft: October
14, 2003. 
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS: Special thank you to Jen who
beta read this story. 
DISCLAIMER: Mulder and Scully belong to
Chris Carter. In my world, they would never give
up William! 
SUMMARY: Mulder yearns for Scully and 
their son, William. Will he decide to come
home?


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Miss You
Written by: Erin M. Blair
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I never thought we would be apart. For one 
moment in time, we were together. I remember
our lips touching, mine caressing yours to 
complete our first kiss.

We were partners in every sense of the word. I 
remember when we first made love, Scully. Our 
bodies united, full of love, and then we created 
William.

I realize now that leaving you to go to the plausible
state of Oregon with Skinner was a mistake. Neither
you nor I knew if I would survive.

But I did survive -- barely -- as I returned to your embrace. 

When I left again to parts unknown, I thought I was keeping
my little family -- you and William -- safe. That's the only
reason why I left. If only had I realized the consequences
of my actions -  our son gone. I know what pain you must 
have succumbed to. Even though I was faraway, I could 
hear your cries of pain. 

Never knowing our baby's firsts. Never knowing our 
son's words.

I miss him dearly. The pain is so unrelenting and I 
realize it's your pain, too.

I miss you, Scully, and I miss our child.

Always.

I want to see you so much, Scully, to ease your 
pain. I want you not to be broken. I want the pain 
to end for us both. I know we will get him back. I want 
to believe that, not only for you but for me as well. 

When I come back to you, I want to take you in my
arms and never let you go.  We will find a way to
get our child back. We have an out in the adoption 
papers: I'd never signed them. I still have my rights,
Scully. I will get him back for us. 

I once told you to never give up on a miracle. I want
you to remember that when I come back to you. If 
I can come back to you so many times, I know
William can come back, too. 

I could feel you, Scully, deep within my heart and 
soul. You're always with me even though you're not
physically here. 

I will always remember you, for our love has held
us together for many years. It has strenghened 
due to our relentless search for the truth. 

I thought my search was to find Samantha but
it led me to you, my holy grail. You're my purpose
for living. I wouldn't last a day without you. I have 
always known you're my touchstone, my soulmate, 
and my truth. You have made me a whole person. Your 
strength and rationalization have saved me a thousand 
times.  

I know I told you this a long time ago, in the hallway of 
my apartment. Everything I said that day was true. I miss
you so much, and I want to come home. I want to be
with you now. 

I'm coming home, Scully.

End of Story.

Feedback: I would love feedback. Send 
to: eblair@sonic.net


Author's Notes:

This was originally a poem but I've turned it into a story. 
I thought it would look better that way. :) I hope you
enjoyed this story as I had writing it.  I would like to thank
everyone at the Haven for being so supportive of me. I would
like to thank Jen for always being there for me. :)

I was inspired by various photos of David Duchovny and his
Mulder in the DD folder at Haven.  And the new photos of
Gillian Anderson in the GA folder at Haven. I truly miss 
seeing them on the X-Files. You truly begin to appreciate
something until it's gone. This story is strongly dedicated
to their beautiful portrayals of Fox Mulder and Dana Scully.